My colleague here at Ashland Seminary, Allan Bevere understands what I mean. In his blog post today he comments on what it means to be a Christian and to live with ambiguity. Here is a bit of what he says.
When I was younger, I needed lots of certainty about things in life. All questions required answers. But as I have grown older, I am not as certain about some things as I used to be. I see life as more complex now than it was twenty years ago. People are more complicated than it seemed when I was younger. Some answers that appeared to suffice for questions I had years ago are no longer adequate; and now, for many of those questions, I am okay with the mystery. And some questions I had when I was younger no longer matter. The questions I have now seem larger, more significant, and therefore more difficult to answer.
Read the rest of Allan's post here and let him know you stopped by.